so this is what has been on my mind a lot today, and i thought i'd share! i just started reading a book called Crazy Love by francis chan yesterday (definitely recommend this one). i'm only on chapter two and already have so much to think about! i'll go ahead and admit that i have been struggling with the very thing this book is focused around, which is being crazy in love with Christ. don't get me wrong, i love Jesus Christ with all of my heart and there is no doubt about it! my conviction here is the fact that i have not really been living every day all day in awe of God and who He is...the type of awe and with the acknowledgment that He deserves. it seems like i stay so focused on being that "good" Christian person that goes to church and doesn't cuss. or just going to God full of requests and concerns all about me...talking "at" God....rather than taking a long hard look at Him, who He is, and what He has done and still is doing before even saying a word.
in a video i watched about the book, the author pointed out something that is so true and also so sad. as he drew the word "GOD" in sand, he asked what comes to mind. is it that "God" is just a familiar word that we know and have heard of our entire lives? or do we think about that name representing such an amazing being!!! here is the question that got me...."is there any sense of awe in you anymore?" so do i really feel shocked...that wow, He is an amazing, holy, incredible being, who does in fact love ME! now talk about crazy love!
"men are never duly touched and impressed with a conviction of their insignificance, until they have contrasted them with the majesty of God." -r.c. sproul. all i have to do is take a look around. everything i see and feel was created by God. there are so many details in our world that are proof of just how awesome and amazing He is. from our galaxies to the little bugs crawling around, to the ways our body function to live and breath...all is a reflection of who He is and just what He is like. it's also the very reason why i want to worship Him...all of the time!
i am totally undeserving. even embarrassed to admit that i fail to give God credit of His awesomeness. like i mentioned earlier, i'm good with talking "at" God. i am a fool for not realizing that i already have everything i need, which is in Him. God is holy, He is eternal, all-knowing, and all-powerful and i am SO grateful that He wants a close and intimate love relationship with me. in proverbs 8:13 God states that he hates pride and arrogance. i no longer want to take Him and His blessings for granted by thinking of myself so much! so this is what i'm going to do....i'm going to stand in awed silence before my amazing God, whose tremendous worth has been made even more apparent to me as i've compared Him to my puny lil' self!
i have a feeling that more posts will be made about this as i keep reading. i honestly feel like God has purposefully given me this book to bring me back to such a crazy love relationship with Him, which is what i so badly want. He sure is putting me in my place and i have needed it! i'm tired of mediocre Christianity...it just ain't cutting it. i'm pumped about serving an amazing God and i want everyone else excited too! be in awe...He deserves it! :)
I need and want to read this book! Thank you for reading it and blogging about it! love u
ReplyDeleteYeah, that book messed me up too. I've recommended it to a lot of people as well. It really makes you question what is important and what is not. Cool post! And good point, I want the word God to make me think of Him, the personality, not the religion so many have put him in.
ReplyDelete-Chris Ulery (I met you at the FFH concert)