into the mind of me...

so, i'm pretty sure it's been almost 5 months since i've last blogged. oops, my bad. no wonder i have about...zero followers! ;) i'm not going to lie, i've been on here so many times and just felt at a loss for words. i don't understand how sometimes (try a lot of times) i can have SO much on my mind, but have no clue where to start or how to get those thoughts across to someone who may be interested in reading! thanks to whoever you are by the way! ;) well, here it goes...a little peak into my mind here lately...

i am a substitute teacher right now, and i'm pretty sure whoever is reading this already knew that information! and i bet you also already knew that i just graduated college and absolutely cannot WAIT to have a job teaching kids. my excitement is almost to the explosive level!! this has been a time in my life where God has been teaching me the real meaning of that word "patience." for someone as impatient as i am, waiting on and wondering about a job is hard work! however, i have a loving God who is constantly reminding me to wait patiently on Him because He hears my cries (psalm 40:1); and that if i wait on Him, He will renew my strength so that i can run and not grow weary (isaiah 40:31); and to stay joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer (romans 12:12). these are just a few of his promises that keep me going. i could literally go on and on. He proves to me everyday just how MUCH He loves me, and that I am a crazy person for being so anxious when He's already got the perfect plans laid out for my life. what i am to do right now is live in the day....taking every step as He gives them to me...being loving, joyful, patient, kind, and faithful to what He wants me to do. right now. :)

i love the fact that everyday i am surrounded by different little smiling faces. every time i'm in a classroom i find myself thanking God for placing me there. i mean, seriously, what an awesome way to spend the day! i feel so honored and happy that He chose me to teach, love on, encourage, and just hang out with kids! thank you again for that, God!! as i get the chance to talk with these kids and just watch them interact with each other, i can't help but think about what an example they are to me! an example to be childlike and have childlike faith. luke 17:18 says that whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it. wow. when you spend so much time around children, it takes this verse to a new level. to have that dependency on our Heavenly Father the way that a child depends on his/her mommy and daddy (or teacher) is to me one great example to live by. childlike faith trusts, listens, believes some amazing things, and knows no bounds! i also never want to behave childish when it comes to my christianity. childlike faith is commendable, but childish christianity is not. this childlike faith to me means to just regard myself as unimportant, so that God gets praised for the utmost importance...because He deserves it!! "whoever humbles himself as a child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven." (matthew 18:4)
so...that's my prayer, and that's why i'm so thankful for the many little reminders of this i have running around me everyday. :)


now, that's that! here are a few other updates on my life right now...

1.) i'm getting ready to move into an apartment with miss haley hardgrave and miss jessica dean. we're pretty pumped and excited about decorating, movie nights (with popcorn), sharing clothes, dance parties, eating sandwiches, and singing a lot!
2.) it's going to be extremely weird not living with my parents. i'm not looking forward to adjusting to that change at all...but i love the fact that just because i won't technically live under the same roof as them anymore, my relationship with them will never change. i love them so much!!
3.) my sister and her husband are getting ready to move into their awesome new house that is being built just for them! what a fun journey (and FAST) this has been. their house is awesome and i'm so excited for them!
4.) i took gizzy to the ball-fields for the first time tonight and she pretty much freaked out and was scared to death! i think it's time to get her out of the house and around people more....
5.) i had the privilege of worshipping with hillsong united this past friday night. let me just say if you have never but get the opportunity to do so...DO IT! aaaa-mazing! nothing greater than worshipping God along with thousands of other people who are also in love. awesome! it was also a great little get away weekend with my family-who are the best!
6.) first lavaca's d-now is this weekend! i get to hang out with senior girl's and pour into them! i'm praying that God reveals things to them and completely catches them off guard! i'm excited to spend the weekend surround by all things...God! teenagers...come! :)
7.) i think that does it for tonight! i hope you have a great week...and maybe it won't be another 5 months before i login to blogger again. but i'm not making any promises! :) peace out!